Things don’t seem the same
lately
I know we’ve grown & things have changed but do you think its for better?
Or worse do you think these ‘things’ can be reversed…?
You seem unhappy
Because what’s she said plays in my mind over & over. Again I pause momentarily want these thoughts to evaporate…
look at you..look at me
why did she say you cheated?
I stood took this man & a wedding band knowing by your side I’d always stand….
But I’m sick….to the stomach with all these comings & goings of my mind…. is over flowing….
This constant not knowing
This isn’t healthy for you or for me
I know I love you…but feel the growing distance
I am playing catch-up but I’ll run until my legs ache…
Till death Us do part you’ve always had my heart…
It beats for Us
With-holding how you feel is breaking us…
Thought our vowels was moulding Us!
Let’s go back right from the start tonight we’ll have dinner by candle light looking at our wedding photographs …
We haven’t come so far for you too fall so out of Love
We can get to know each other…
I can fall asleep in your arms to hear your Heart
…God knows maybe with Time spared
You can fall back in Love….with Us Again
~Seka
Our favourite song plays. If we listen closely we can hear the static..It’s the anniversary of our wedding day.
A special date…
I look into your eyes still beautiful but can’t see the love for me they once displayed.
Or maybe it’s still there silently buried beneath all those calamitous insecurities …
My heart is disturbed by your vibration of fear
You tell me you understand and believe what I’m saying yet to my words you never listen gaining different interpretations with the things you just…..
Hear
It’s as if your here but you’re never really HERE…
Lying to me through your stone walls you’ve built about your feelings
Formidable ….
Piercing me with this despairing glare….
Such a lack of faith in me
I can see my reflection in your clouded stream of tears
Now I don’t wanna make you cry but neither one of us are blind and the gospel truth is something’s been amiss a long while
We’ve drifted
You use to wash over me like the sea does sand at shore back when you were sure
Of us…
Maybe if we made babies we’d have a manifestations of our love
beautiful little lives carrying the best parts
Of us…
We’ve been together all this time and when I bring up the subject of kids you always run miles…
not a matter you’re willing to discuss
.. Just….
Forever scrutinised and I can feel the negative vibes ever present in your absence of trust
Lost in a matrix of a seven year itch…
This perfection of self protection has developed into habitual imperfections so our communication
So out of sync…
Maybe we could do marriage counselling but I refuse to go back to the end…
Lets move forward after the song plays
Together….
To dawn a new beginning
a_mark_d
(aka nappysoul )
Aaron Daniel Writes 